Uncertainty

So last week (Tuesday to be precise) I couldn't sleep, and just before midnight I realised my arms were tingling, and going numb.  I kept getting up and trying to shake it off, but it kept getting worse and worse.  I finally woke Jon up, because I was getting seriously scared, and we ended up on the phone with Healthlink, and I was looking stuff up online....I thought I was having a heart attack, but symptoms didn't match.  I seriously honestly truly thought I was dying that night, that I wouldn't see morning.  It scared the crap out of me.

The nurse at Healthlink told me that it didn't seem life-threatening, but if it got worse overnight to go to emergency.  If it didn't get worse, see a doctor the next day.  OK.

It didn't get worse, so I went to a walk in the next day.  Saw this a-maz-ing doctor that, sadly, isn't taking new patients.  He sent me for blood tests, the results came back and I went in to see him.  Turns out my thyroid count was way high, and he wanted to send me for more blood tests, an ultrasound, and a scan.  Yeah, like I didn't google the you-know-what out of thyroid and everything related!

I went for the ultrasound on Thursday, and have the blood tests scheduled for this Tuesday, and the scan for this Wednesday.  I figured we'd get the results at the end of the week or next Monday.  The doctor's office called me yesterday (Saturday) afternoon, and said I needed to come in first thing Monday morning.  Like that isn't going to freak me out completely?

Again, back to Dr. Google.  I had to reassure the Dr. from last week that I'm not trying to find something that matches my symptoms, I am trying to be informed.  So, what's the worst case scenario that I could come up with that would make the doctor call me in before my other tests were done.  Of course, a growth was the worst thing I could think of.  Soooooooooooo, google everything I could find related to thyroid growths and such.  Turns out that 80% are nothing more than a cyst or equivalent - so no biggie.  Of the remainder, 15 percent that may be cancerous are easily treated with a slim likelihood of recurrence.  The last five percent is the worrisome part, but even most of those are treatable.  The last one percent is rare, but it's a very dangerous one.  I like being unique, but not like that.

We will find out tomorrow morning what he saw on the ultrasound to have me come in so quickly.

On the plus side, I did find a new doctor - met him today for the first time, and think it will work out well.  Pity the one I've been seeing wouldn't take me as a patient - believe me, I begged :)

Praying that it's something we can treat so I can stick around for a while yet.